不朽的故事

Journey of life - One step at a time

Monday, August 20, 2012

Time

The Argument 
"Come on, where are the papers???" murmured a middle-aged men wearing an oversized-white coat. Sporting squarish glasses, the man, in his 30s, projects a scientific aura through his doctor-like coat in a rather weird-looking laboratory that is heavily stacked with gadgets. It is a busy environment with machineries interacting with each other, emanating echoes resembling those of the factory production lines piercing through the contrasting tranquillity of the spacious underground surrounding. The man, Professor James Culkin, is a highly regarded physicist specialising in the area of time and space. Being hailed as one of the brightest and most promising professor in the University of Illnois, James has initiated numerous astonishing breakthroughs in his areas of specialty, thereby taking the physicist field in a storm. 

Currently, he is working on his latest research, yet another potential creation that might make heads turn and may possibly earn him a candidacy in the prestigious Noble prize. The project under scrutiny revolves around a concept long fascinates mankind – the concept of time-travelling. In the heart of the spacious dungeon-lookalike laboratory laid a cubic machine that houses numerous complicated wiring and buttons that were clearly beyond understanding. As a matter of fact, the machine resembled the look of a portable metal washroom indeed, with the extensive addition of wires that occasionally churned out dangerous looking sparks. 

Frantically searching the mountain of paperwork like an excited treasure-seeker on the verge of finding a precious gem stone, James buries himself in the heaves of mess and the deafening noise of the machineries while holding an odd-looking L-shaped metal on his hand. “This is ridiculous!!!! The paper is just right here the moment before!!! I need it to recheck my formulas and to find out the exact location to input this piece. Ah, this is ridiculous!!” 

“James, is dinner time now. Jerry and Katie are waiting for you at the dinner table,” a loud and sweet voice emanated from the other end of the laboratory. It was Shereen, James’s lovely partner whom he has tied the knot with 5 years ago. Jerry and Katie, both 4 years old, are the adorable twins of the couple. “It’s been like 20 minutes since the last reminder, hon, you might want to put a hold to your work and enjoy the dinner first?” Shereen called out again. “Be there in a minute, honey, I’m very very close to getting the final part on any moment now,” replied James, still in his search for the vital piece of paper.

“You gave me the same reply 20 minutes ago and the kids are starving here already, come on, there’s always time for the machine later, it wouldn’t run away,” uttered coldly by an impatient Shereen. 

“Oh come on, I just needed like 5 more minutes?? I’m so close to getting it done,” begged James, deep down hoping the paper would just pop out in the next moment. “Or else you’ll just eat without me, I’ll join in shortly” 

“The kids wanted you together…” Shereen was interrupted before she managed to finish her sentence. There was a commotion going on in the dining table, the children started crying, perhaps due to being hungry, or that both the twins fought - James was uncertain what happened but the wailing sounds of the twin add on to his strenuous thoughts, rendering him harder to seek out the necessary documents. James sighed. With great unwillingness, he simply shoved the papers aside, and makes his way up the stairs up to the dining room. 

Upon entering the dining hall, James was greeted by the scene of two crying children with a plateful of mashed potato spilled all over the dining room floor, pieces of the plate’s debris scattered around and Shereen was busy calming the twins down despite the messy surrounding. Apparently, one of the twin accidentally pushed the plate down the dining table and the breaking of the plate as well of the accompanying sounds resulting from the falling of the utensils was enough to trigger a full-blown crying from the twins.

“Argh, just when I was fully occupied with my work, Jerry and Katie have to set this off,” James was clearly distraught by the missing paper and started to blame the children for obstructing his progress. 

“It was dinner time and if you did manage to control your time and make your way to the dining table earlier, perhaps all of this would not happen,” replied Shereen coldly while simultaneously patting the twins’ back gently to calm them down. “And, they are just children! Do you have to blame them for holding back your stupid research? You have been occupying yourself too extensively for the past two weeks! Three of us rarely see you these days! Snap out of it James!” 

“It was not a stupid research! I was doing it for the greater good of the mankind! If it was not for your yelling earlier, perhaps Jerry or Kat may not drop the plate!! You’re their mother, you should be watching over them while I focus on my almost-completed work!!!” yelled James, clearly losing his temper at the moment. “Are you not their father? For your information, I need to work daily and returned to clean up the house, cook dinner, wash the dishes, and get them to sleep!!! I did almost EVERYTHING while you tinkle with your hideous looking machine! Have you ever think of my work load???!” the escalating argument between the couple aided minimally to suppressing the twin’s wailing. On the contrary, as both James and Shereen raised their voice, the twins cried even louder. Soon, the dining hall was filled with anger and hatred encompassed with deafening crying by the twins. 

After a few more rounds of heated arguments, Shereen decided it was enough. “Fine, since you no longer bother to have dinner with us and take care of Kate and Jerry, we’ll just leave so you can continue to play around with your gadgets!!!!” “Alright, great, more peace for me!” replied James sarcastically. Upon uttering those words, Shereen threw down the napkins on the floor angrily, stormed up the stairs with the both sobbing Jerry and Katie, packed a bagful of clothing and prepared to exit to the porch. Amidst both the twins crying out for their father, a tearful Shereen, while holding tightly to both the twins’ hands, turn to James for the last time and murmured in great despair – “why?” before leaving the house totally heart-broken. 

While hearing his wife’s car gradually vanishing through the street, James, though looked unsettled by sudden dramatic incident that unfolded right in front of his eyes, was unwilling to make any attempts to rescue the ailing condition. At the moment, the importance of completing the machine seemed to have overwhelmed his emotions and care to his family. Starring at the spaghetti and potato prepared by his wife earlier prior to the argument, while concurrently feeling slightly regretful and confused on what should be his next move, James decisively turned back from the table and yet again immersed himself in his creation.

-To be continued-

Thursday, July 26, 2012

渺小

突然,觉得自己很渺小。看着越来越多朋友, 尤其中学的,都一个个毕业了,不仅多了感慨, 多了一份唏嘘。 希望能向他们般优异的迈向另一个里程碑,但近期,过去了的表现,令我天天多了份犹豫,忧郁,惶恐。虽说无法改变,却不得不质疑自己付出的努力:我究竟有付出所有吗?也不得不开始质疑自己所定下的标准- 难听点, 的确感觉下滑了。 看着朋友们, 有的工作能力卓越,有的分析能力独到, 从新评估自己,好像无法相提并论。 想到自己以往有很大的抱负,想到改变世界, 改变自己和家人的生活水准, 让忙碌的父母过着无忧的退休生活,大学失色的表现,令我开始担忧自己离目标越远, 虽说读书不能只顾成绩, 但如果不能表现得好- 连这基本学生责任都无法做到,还真没资格谈未来。 说真的,要从新规划人生了......

Sunday, April 8, 2012

Day 3 - Helping hands

While anticipating for the results of the report which is to be revealed on the coming week, herbs have been widely sourced to cure the disease. Thankfully for all relatives and friends, adequate amount of snake grasses have been gathered to aid with the healing process...Really hope it can serve as our saviour.

Chemotherapy - a subject which I dare not discuss with her. Truthfully, I had my fair share of doubts too. Although it was widely used as the main treatment for cancers, and there are numerous cases of successful patients, the process is understandably excruciating. She definitely rejected the idea of using chemo. Although I do recognise and would agree with her concerns on chemo, rationally, I also understand the importance of undergoing it to kill off these unfavourable cells. Thus, I couldn't start persuading her in view of my personal conflicting viewpoints.

Keep fighting...

Saturday, April 7, 2012

Day 2 - Life will never be the same

It's the second day since I was told of the shocking results. The atmosphere was slightly better than yesterday but it's still very worrying. After undergoing a biopsy, she was visibly tired. In fact, soon after the anaesthetic resides, the pain steps in. From her look, it's definitely heartache to see such condition, but I know these are only the tests....

Undertaking all her responsibility at home, I started to understand how taxing and repetitive her work would be. Personally carrying out the tasks made me realised how much she had contributed to the family, now I know it's my time to shoulder her responsibilities for her to rest adequately. Thankfully, despite the inconveniences, she guided me through the chores such that I wouldn't look so loss...

After a brief visit by my aunt, we were aware of the need to completely overhaul our eating habits. We understand the road to recovery require strict observation at her eating habits. She could no longer take the dishes she loved like crabs, eggs and lots more. She could rarely join three of us for dinner and take the same meal as us. And the first thing she said upon understanding this stunned me for a moment:

"Life will never be that interesting again"

Somehow upon hearing that, I found the sky was not the same anymore. I can feel that her perspective on life is not the same. Even the dinner in her absence felt so gloomy. Looking at other families at the restaurant, tears started rolling in the eyes but I know I couldn't break down. Upon understanding her tough stand on chemotherapy, we really hope the traditional herbs would cure the demonic disease within her soon. I understand, the road to recovery would be a long one, but trust me, I will be your side through the journey ahead...

Sunday, September 11, 2011

Sacrificial power

These few days, reading through the newspaper, I suddenly realized the power of sacrifice. Although in the eyes of others, these sacrifice may seem small, yet they contribute to major changes in the world.

Reflecting back to the 9/11 tragedy, it has been 10 years since the act of terrorism send chills and anger throughout the whole world. I recall during that event, through the live news, I was witnessing the plane crashing into the 2nd tower and immediately the tower crumbles with agony screaming around the US public. In midst of that chaos, there is another scheduled hijacking which was supposed to crash into the Pentagon, but due to the fighting spirit of the passengers on board the hijacked plane, they sacrificed themselves by retaliating on the hijackers thus rendering the flight to plunge into an area somewhere of the targeted destination. Although I couldn't remember any survivors from the crash, their heroic spirit has definitely spared dozens and thousands of innocent lives from being taken away.

Till date, people are still sacrificing selflessly in place for a better future for the coming generations. For instance, I read about a Japanese veteran engineer who pool together a group of retired veterans in coming out with solutions to neutralized the threat of the Fukoshima nuclear disaster which has yet to be suppressed. Although these retirees may have been of old age, they are willing to volunteer themselves to enter into the hazardous nuclear plant to carry out salvaging work for the cooler system. They would not hesitate to stand in front of the younger generations to protect them from the high risk of the radiation. They feel that rather than exposing the young ones to the radiation, they feel its more appropriate for them to shelter this burden. They may not have any ties with most of the younger people, yet they are doing this out of selflessness, out of a pure heart to sacrifice for a better tomorrow.

I would like to pay my highest tribute to these heroes who have a heart of gold, who have a spirit of selflessness that ensures continuous warmth among humanity.

Friday, September 9, 2011

BIS and SIFE meetings

It's a roller coaster day.

First during audit class, something unexpected happened. Everything seems so blur, I'm so lost, yet no idea how it begins or how it progress.........Both are my friends, yet at such loggerheads that I dunno how to respond.......

Next, there is the BIS meeting. I met Sunway's Steve Jobs (yes, he do look like Steve Jobs) yet sounded more crappy XD, gotta admit, he's good at talking, whoever groups with him for presentation or for competition will sure win. Was a bit disappointed initially as design which was confirmed earlier was scheduled for another major change, feels the effort just gone to the drain.....haiz

Luckily, SIFE brought my mood up. First of course met up with the people from the gang I usually mix around, next, met my secondary friend, glad to have another CHS friend here in Sunway. Started off with a price tag game, sadly, I'm only worth RM 0.05 or RM 0.10 (convertible, not bad, specs cost me less) Then, during C.A.R game, really gave it all, image totally tarnished....XD. Finally, seeing the outspoken people in SIFE such as Celine, Kishen and Sonia make me wonder how much will I have to learn to be able to speak so naturally. With their level of presentation, they still said they were far away from the UTP SIFE and UUM people, guess there's really a lot of talented people out there, I'm definitely feeling more inferior now....lol

That's all for the day, still in confusion, but better now......

Friday, February 18, 2011

Happy + Sad = Neutral

Today first endure a short lived moment of happiness, but it soon ended in disappointment and frustration.

Persuasive speech on next thurs? No idea, but definitely I'm on topic stress now. Add on with graded test 2 on next wed, it's like Do or Die for next week.

Numbers summarizing the day: Seven, Eight, Five, Five

PS: I'm not giving tips on buying TOTO or MAGNUM, if you bought and nothing came out, I shall not be liable.